UNREALISTIC

To be. Or not to be.

I dont feel like going home tonite.
I hate it when i dream big,
then people came up to me and give me a slap of reality to my freakin face.

"be realistic," she said.

"u cant do that. u cant do this. not yet. not in 10 years from now."

then when?
if i dont start now, i dont think it will happen at all, even in the next 10 years.

judge me from my past.
afraid that i might do the same mistakes.
heh. More like "paranoid".

there's always a way.
Always.

if not,
Elvis wont be Elvis.

JUST SOMETHING THAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH EVERYDAY



im pathetic.

KU LIHAT LAYU DALAM MELAYU..



by : Malique Ibrahim (taken from album "Malique...OK")

Sesungguhnya,
tidak ada yang lebih menyayat,
dari melihat bangsaku dijajah.
tidak ada yang lebih menyedihkan,
dari membiarkan bangsa semakin hilang...

Aku lihat layu dalam melayu,
aku pasti bukan aku seorang sahaja yang nampak.
ada juga bercadang bertanya tuan punya,
tapi bercampur risau dengan tak tergamak,
nanti dikata tak bersyukur,
dikata tak sedar diri,
jadi aku menyendiri..memerhati..
dan akhirnya mengakui..yang kita sendiri,
membiarkan bunga raya melayu kekanan
dan dibiar bunga tak cantik mekar di kiri.

Aku lihat layu dalam melayu,
tanah air kita yang punya
kita siram, kita baja,
tapi angin api kita lupa.

Mereka merancang masa menjilat bangsa,
13 harimau bertukar menjadi mangsa,
kita lupa...nenek moyang kaya raya,
jangan sekali-kali digadai harta bendanya.

Ku lihat layu dalam melayu...

Takkan melayu hilang di dunia..
Iya...tapi apa guna tak hilang di dunia,
kalau kewujudan tidak dirasa..
petah berbahasa, kudrat tak berjasa..
orang berbudi, kita hanya tau merasa..

Selalu lari bila dirapat,
selalu malu bila soalan diaju;
Selalu segan memberi pendapat,
rela mengikut dari meneraju..

Belum nyanyi sudah bersorak,
suka berjanji dalam borak..
Bukan kata tak ada otak,
cuma tak berfikir di luar kotak..

Ku lihat layu dalam melayu...

Aku jadi sayu.
Bunga menangis, dia mendayu,
mahu jadi cantik tetapi ragu,
aku merayu..

Bangunlah semula hidup kembali
jangan tunggu matahari mati
cepatlah mekar sebelum terlerai
perjuangan kita belum selesai...

perjuangan kita belum selesai,
kerana hanya yang cekal dan tabah,
dapat membina mercu tanda bangsanya
yang berjaya....

Just one of those unfinished songs that i wrote:
1) Dari Jauh

Tiada malam lena tidurku,
Hanya igauan mimpi yang pilu,
kerna setiap kali kupejamkan mata
ku hanya terlihat...dirimu.

Mengapa aku masih menanti,
harapan yang kian tidak pasti,
walau kusedar hakikatnya kau
takkan kembali..ke sisi.

Walau kau tidak perlukanku
Ku tetap mendoakan kebahagiaanmu
Tapi hanya satu yang kupinta
Izinkan ku menyintaimu dari jauh..

P/S: Corny. i know.

practise praktis PRACTISE!!

AT LEAST :

One hour of singing a day.
One choreography a day. Learn a new one weekly.
One composed tune (verse or chorus) a day.
Learn One song on guitar a week.
Learn One song on piano a week.
One beats composition a day (Fruity Loops or Reason, or just human-beatbox)
Lyrics macamana?

One 3d object a day.
One drawing a day.
One photo a day.

One hour of jogging twice a week.
Gym sessions everyday.
Wait a minute, i don't have time for gyms.
OK tukar. Home-workout sessions, daily basis.

but u know as they say,
all that, the more the better.

and of course

5 times of prayers a day.

And one hell of a life im having.

Gua dah bosan perform cara sama. Everytime naik stage nyanyi lagu sama. The same set of Hati Ini, Pria Terhebat (with tengah ade dance break), Pada Senyummu and kadang2 ade la selit lagu Bukan Untukku or Dipersimpangan Kenangan.

If im lucky, dapat la jugak perform lagu "like i love u" with dancers Floor Fever crew. Tapi nak bayar dancers tu haduihh....not complaining, but with the hasil that i get from shows, bayar dancers, tersangat lah sikitnya portion yang gua dapat. See, i dun care about the money, u know, as long as i can have great show, im happy. But how can we get a great show with a very low budget, pakai minus one and nyanyi sengsorang on stage?

Audience bosan kot. Im sure. They'll go like, "ohh man, another guy singer from another reality tv show". Camne diorang nak take me seriously if i keep on doing the same thing over and over again? Naik nyanyi turun. apakah??? Everyone can do that. EVRYONE.

Some singers can whale their voice for a whole day long, bile tarik tinggi sket, "wuishhh dahsyat nye ini worang"...but im not one of those singers. Im a performer. I cant just sing on stage pastu diri jer, that wont work.

I have to be different.

Ade few shows i did, i sang Pada Senyummu while lukis a caricature of a little girl that picked from the audience, and also when i sing Pria Terhebat, there's a break where i masukkan a part of Rock Your Body punye beatbox break and i dance to it. And then ade this one show at JB and Kulai, i bawak white rose and kasi an audience when i sing the part "mawarku...tahukah kau.." of the song "Kau Pergi Jua".

But itu suma tak cukup. Cliche. I want more.

I wish i can do something like Futuresex/Loveshow, where i own the stage, the band, the dancers, the lights, the audiences, and the whole goddamn show. Sing all my own songs. No covers. Im sick of singing covers. Now that's, a great show.

Maybe one day people will see what i can do and what im capable of. Maybe one day people will appreciate my efforts to give a great show, and respect me for it.

Blog. Snoop Bloggy Blogg. Snoop Bloggy Blogg featuring Nate Blogg.

Sapeeelah yang mencipta blog. And kenapa dia panggil "BLOG"? Why not "ELOG"? We don't call e-mail as bmail kan?

Ok. Saya ngarut. The worst introduction for a blog. And it's my first post. And from my past experience, it myte be the last.

So why do i Blog even thou i tau it wont last more than 2 posts. If blogger.com still available the next 20 years, then there'll be a 3rd post kot. I duno.

Maybe Blog is an 'IN' thing nowadays. People upload their thoughts and feelings thru online. (god, this keyboard is sticky. jenama apakah ini? "TECOM"? apatu?) They sell stuffs thru blogs nowadays. Oh, tau Shopreina? Thats amira's blog jual baju. BAJU. wow, skrg takyah gi Topshop dah bleh browse for baju kan? Is there an online fitting room as well? oh here's the link to shopreina.

its 8.25 in the morning. And its RARE for me to get up this early (unless I tak tido at all). I wonder if Nasi Lemak mak cik klantan kat bawah bukak ke tak...oh. tak bukak. tengah cuti. lupa. haih, ini la yang tak best bile duk hostel mase cuti mid term. Kedai nasi lemak tak bukak. why am i staying in hostel sedangkan its cuti? Well, duk rumah pun bosan also. Kakak goes to work, Madihah skooling, Umi jaga kedai, Naufal, Ayah, Mommy at Taman Kosas. And i left my pc here in MMU, so i stay here la. I got vocal class at 2. or 3. My class usually on Monday at 3 at Platinum Studios, but postpne ke Today sebab Monday haritu hangout with my dad at Klcc....

.....yeah. teringat dat day mase i hangout at klcc. She didnt even look at me. Probably cos the boyfren was there. Or i dun matter at all. at ALL. haih. But she seems happy. Thats all that matters.